My father and I don't have the best relationship. I haven't seen him since my grandma's funeral last July.
Over the past ten years I've tried to build on the little we have but continued to push me away so I said the hell with him!
Every year I debate on calling it testing on fathers day and this year I did. I didn't text til 7:49 this evening and ny nerves were on edge because he was taking too fanned ling to hollaring back. Honestly I was feeling more hurt than anger.
Finally after more than an hour later he text back saying thanks, he's in Philly at the Sade show and he said I love you. It kinda touched my heart and makes wanna try again but I can't set myself up for his ish again.
So now I feel good I did my part as a daughter...I guess and maybe he won't forget my birthday this year.
Over the past ten years I've tried to build on the little we have but continued to push me away so I said the hell with him!
Every year I debate on calling it testing on fathers day and this year I did. I didn't text til 7:49 this evening and ny nerves were on edge because he was taking too fanned ling to hollaring back. Honestly I was feeling more hurt than anger.
Finally after more than an hour later he text back saying thanks, he's in Philly at the Sade show and he said I love you. It kinda touched my heart and makes wanna try again but I can't set myself up for his ish again.
So now I feel good I did my part as a daughter...I guess and maybe he won't forget my birthday this year.
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